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I sometimes wish that I was normal enough to be loved
That I was pretty enough for someone to be proud to have me
And not someone who is an utter geek
I also wish that I was someone's favourite girl
That he can point at and his friends understand

I wish that I wasn't podgy and that I was shorter
So I'm like the other girls
I also wish that I had smaller breasts so boys like me
For me

I wish that everyone understood me
My friends and family say I'm stroppy but I'm just stressed
They say that I smile all the time
But I don't really
It's all just a load of rubbish

I wish I could write decent poetry instead of random babbles
I wish that people could fall in love with my smile
And that they understood that some smiles are fake
And some are real
I wish they could tell and hug me if they are fake

I wish that people would realise just how much they mean to me
Because sometimes they don't understand
Or care
Sometimes they just want me to leave them alone
Some people say I should leave them alone
But I never will

I hate how people say I haven't got anyone
When actually they have the whole world in their hands
And people would drop dead for them
Just to make them happier

I wish people would remember the times I remember
And not say that I'm making it up when I'm really not
I wish I could see everyone I know everyday
And I wish that they would be happy to see me too

I wish that it could be so much simpler
And not complicated and hurting
I wish that friendships never broke
And that everything was the same as it was just a few weeks, months, years ago
When it was fun to play army and hang around with boys
When that first kiss happened
And the world seemed like it was going to explode
When all my friends were talking to me and I felt like flirting with everyone.