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JULIA - MY SUMMER VIDEO DIARY

Poetry with the power of healing

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JULIA'S Q&A

Follow Julia's diary here, as she reacts to changes in herself and her family through the summer months - each entry, an honest reflection of reality ...

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Diary Entry 1

"It gets very tiring being seen as a person with cancer. Some times you just want to say I am just standing here talking to you聟 but on the other hand I know people have their best intensions."

Diary Entry 2

"It is very very hard to take on the idea of chemotherapy when you feel fine and when you know its not going to cure you."

Diary Entry 3

"It's quite hard to get your head round聟 one minute I'm planning my funeral and the next minute I'm getting back into work mode聟 the first bit of good news I've had for ages."

Diary Entry 4

"I get a bit exacerbated with people in the scan places because they are a bit foolish with the veins. If they don't listen to me it is so frustrating and I get so mad."

Diary Entry 5

"I am more and more aware that I am feeling much better. I am much busier聟 there are just an awful lot of things to be done."

Diary Entry 6

"It's like my old relationship with my body has completely gone - we tiptoe around each other and you never know what it's going to do next so I don聮t trust my body."

Diary Entry 7

"Sometimes you just feel like it's really up hill聟 my god is this what the rest of my life is going to be like? It is usually writing that saves me I suppose."

Diary Entry 8

"I had about five minutes when I thought about assisted suicide聟 but something in me couldn't do that聟 it's a moral thing聟 I'd be scared I might not go to heaven."