The girl who was never
meant to survive
This is the story of her extraordinary survival and her dreams for the future.
Haven Shepherd kneels on the school diving board, takes a deep breath and launches herself into the pool.
鈥淲hen I'm in the water I feel completely free, I get to feel completely myself.鈥�
The pool gives Haven respite from her prosthetic legs. Wearing them all day can be 鈥渆xhausting鈥�, the 15-year-old says.
It鈥檚 a long way from her training pool in Carthage, Missouri, to the hut in rural Vietnam where her father tried to end her life.
Haven Shepherd was born Do Thi Thuy Phuong on 10 March 2003, in Quang Nam province.
When she was just 14 months old, her father made a deadly decision. He entered their hut and strapped himself and Haven鈥檚 mother to a TNT explosive device. They held Haven between them.
I survived something so dramatic - I wasn't supposed to live
The force of the explosion killed both her parents instantly and threw Haven more than 30ft [9m] from the hut, local reports at the time said.
鈥淚 survived something so dramatic - I wasn't supposed to live,鈥� Haven says.
According to local media reports, Haven鈥檚 father was married to someone else and had other children. When Haven鈥檚 mother discovered this, she is reported to have threatened to leave him and he decided to end all their lives.
Haven鈥檚 birth certificate: One translation of Haven鈥檚 Vietnamese name, Phuong, is 鈥楶hoenix.鈥�
Haven has been told a different story, passed down by her grandparents. Their account was that, desperate at being unable to marry, Haven鈥檚 parents decided together to detonate the bomb.
What we do know is that Haven was found burned, shrapnel embedded in her head, and her feet mangled. But still alive.
Haven smiles as she recalls being called 鈥渢he miracle child鈥� as she grew up. But she remembers very little of her life in Vietnam.
She was rushed to hospital by her grandmother, and although it was a long motorcycle ride, across mountains and jungle, she didn't go into shock.
Once in hospital, both her legs were immediately amputated beneath the knee to avoid infection. She spent more than a month receiving treatment.
Her grandparents鈥� distress was compounded by their poverty.
Unable to pay for treatment themselves, they had to rely on donations from other patients鈥� families to help pay for her care.
鈥淲e hope you readers can help with this heart breaking case,鈥� ends a local newspaper report from the time.
A decision
As Haven lay in hospital, more than 8000 miles (13,000km) away Shelly and Rob Shepherd were grappling with a dilemma.
The couple led a busy life in a small town in Missouri, US, raising their six children and running a family flooring business.
But Shelly couldn鈥檛 shake the feeling that their family was not complete.
鈥淲e had heard a speaker talk about international adoption, and the astronomical amount of children in the world that needed a home. I sat there telling myself that could never be us. Why would we? We had six biological children.
鈥淭hen the next thought was: 鈥榃hy not us?鈥� From that point on I couldn鈥檛 rid myself from the feeling that we were absolutely supposed to do this.鈥�
But for her husband it was not so simple.
Rob was still deeply affected by a fatal accident he had been involved in with his brother Terry in 2000.
They had been travelling home from a company picnic, with a dunking machine that had provided the afternoon鈥檚 entertainment strapped to their vehicle.
They misjudged the height of the game and the top of it struck a tunnel. The structure gave way, and Terry was crushed by the roof of their truck. He died instantly.
Rob and Shelly were a couple with a strong faith and had always opened up their home to other children - hosting and even fostering children for periods of time. But Rob just didn鈥檛 feel in the right frame of mind to go ahead with an adoption.
Eventually Shelly managed to convince him, and shortly after their decision the couple were invited on a trip to Vietnam with Shelly鈥檚 school friend Pam Copes and her husband Randy.
Pam and Randy had also suffered a terrible tragedy. In 1999, their teenage son Jantsen had died suddenly from an undetected heart ailment after football practice.
Pam and Randy cite a visit to Vietnam, where other friends had opened an orphanage, as an invaluable part of their own healing process.
They went on to help street children in Vietnam, using Jantsen鈥檚 memorial money to set up a foundation called Touch a Life.
Now the couple wanted Shelly and Rob to travel to Vietnam with them to help facilitate the adoption of a Vietnamese baby they had read about on a previous trip. That baby was Haven.
We didn鈥檛 know then that we鈥檇 fall in love with her
Haven鈥檚 grandparents had explained they were too poor to care for her, and wanted Pam and Randy to take her into a shelter they had opened for disabled children in Vietnam.
But Pam and Randy felt this was not the best place for her. There were not a lot of prosthetics available in the country.
They arranged for Haven to be adopted by another family in the US.
Shelly decided to take up her friends鈥� invitation to travel to Vietnam and help with the adoption. She thought the experience there would help her and her husband understand the needs of the world鈥檚 children.
But while they were there, something unexpected happened.
鈥淲e didn鈥檛 know then that we鈥檇 fall in love with her,鈥� Shelly says.
Adoption
It was October 2004, and the Copes and the Shepherds had travelled to Da Nang on Vietnam鈥檚 coast. They were then driven by van and finally motorbikes to a small village high in the mountains and thick jungle. It was there that Haven lived with her grandparents.
Shelly remembers with complete clarity the moment she met the baby for the first time.
鈥淗er sister brought her up and I just put my hands out to her and she just put her hands out to me and at that moment it was like we both knew.鈥�
Back in Da Nang, as they walked on the beach the following morning, Haven seemed to want Rob to carry her all the time. The couple started to realise that she was beginning to feel like their own child.
But just a couple of weeks later, once the paperwork and visas had been processed, Haven was in the US with her new adopted parents.
Shelly had expected to feel inspired by the trip to Vietnam. In fact she returned heartbroken.
鈥淭hat moment where Shelly handed the baby over just about killed her,鈥� recalls Rob. 鈥淏ut at the same time that was what we [had] agreed to do.鈥�
And then, six days later, Shelly received a call from Pam. She told her that the other family had decided that they weren鈥檛 the right fit for her.
In just a matter of hours Haven was reunited with the Shepherds.
Now 15, Haven describes 19 November 2004 as her 鈥済otcha day鈥�.
鈥淚t鈥檚 the day when you are brought home to your family鈥�.
Shelly, her voice breaking, says: 鈥淲hen she came back through the door our family was complete.鈥�
She says her other children were fully supportive of the decision to adopt Haven.
鈥淚 think because we've been a big family, I always focused on teaching the kids that love is always multiplied, it鈥檚 never divided. So when you add another child, it just means we have a whole lot more love to share with each other.鈥�
American family
Among the open fields and expansive skies of their Midwest town, the Shepherd house is hosting a family breakfast. The living room is full of the noise and chaos of 13 children. Toddlers run across the room while older siblings discuss an upcoming wedding, laughing and joking.
Haven lies in the middle of the carpet as her nieces and nephews crowd around. One takes her arms, while another playfully lifts her by her prosthetic legs to swing her back and forward. Haven shrieks with laughter.
She says she loves being part of such a big family. Her siblings ranged in age from seven to 21 when she was adopted.
鈥淚 had four older sisters and I was always in their make-up, always dressing up just to be like them. I think that really shaped me because they were such great role models in my life.
The Shepherd sisters during Christmas 2018
鈥淎nd, you know, growing up with a bunch of high schoolers - that was really fun. I got to eat breakfast for dinner a lot of times after a big dance and just had a really great childhood.鈥�
Haven was five years old when she first asked Shelly how she lost her legs.
Her mum was lifting her out of the bath and wrapping her in a towel. Shelly told her the story.
The first prosthetic feet made for Haven
鈥淲ell that was stupid,鈥� Shelly says Haven interjected. And then asked: 鈥淲here do you even get a bomb in Vietnam?鈥�
It wasn鈥檛 something Shelly could answer, and her daughter, confident and unfazed, had already started to play.
The use of explosives to settle debts, family disputes, and even take lives is not uncommon in Vietnam, and often reported by the local media, says the 大象传媒 Vietnamese service. Some parts of the country are still littered with explosives left over from the Vietnam war, which ended in 1975.
I always knew I was going to be an athlete.
Haven鈥檚 story has had a profound effect on her siblings.
One of her sisters, 31-year-old Haley, has gone on with her husband to adopt their own child - from DR Congo.
Haven鈥檚 sister Haley and her 6-year-old son, Shep
And they in turn have influenced Haven鈥檚 life choices.
鈥淚 went from track meet to volleyball game to basketball game. I was always surrounded by a very active household,鈥� she says. 鈥淪o I always knew I was going to be an athlete.鈥�
Shelly, however, admits that she initially had a stereotypical view of her disabled child.
鈥淚 thought, 鈥極K I'm going to have to give her alternatives to sport.鈥� I thought maybe she'd play the piano or she would want to sew - there's so many dumb things I thought.鈥�
Haven initially tried running like her sisters, but the sweat on her legs made her prosthetics slip.
Finally, Shelly suggested they try swimming.
The future
鈥淚t makes me feel really empowered,鈥� Haven says. 鈥淸Growing up], I couldn't really do everything on my own, so it's like the first thing that I got to do by myself.鈥�
She started swimming at 10 years old, and just two years later had joined a more serious swimming team that trained all year round.
After her 13th birthday, Haven鈥檚 racing times were such that the US Paralympic team started tracking her as a potential national candidate.
Haven says this meant it was no longer enough just to be 鈥渁n OK swimmer鈥�. She needed to add weights and more time in the pool to her training regime. Nowadays there are also trips to Colorado to swim at the Olympic Training Center.
Last summer, Haven travelled to Italy with other prospective US Paralympic competitors and the team won two gold medals.
鈥淚 got to wear the USA across my cap and that was super cool. I took a picture of it and said [to my friends and family] 鈥榠t鈥檚 real, it鈥檚 real.鈥�
鈥淪wimming for your country means a lot.鈥�
It鈥檚 just over a year until Tokyo hosts the next Olympic and Paralympic games.
For Haven, the honour of being chosen to represent Team USA would be 鈥渢he peak of my life鈥�.
Her coach Shawn Klosterman thinks she has a good chance.
鈥淪he isn鈥檛 afraid to do the work,鈥� he says.
Final trials are just a few months before the Games so they know that the next couple of years are going to be 鈥渒ind of a grind鈥�.
Shawn also recognises that Haven is still a teenager.
鈥淪he's a good example that you can be a committed top level athlete working hard and still be a goofy kid, and the fun and the training can go hand in hand,鈥� he says.
Haven says that she loves being with her swim team - friends who she jokes are her 鈥渇our leggers鈥�, referring to the fact they have all their limbs.
She says she hopes she is helping to teach them that 鈥渢here's more Havens out there鈥�.
Haven says she grew up with very few disabled people around her, but she was always secure with her disability.
鈥淚 had two choices,鈥� she says. 鈥淚 could have become a very insecure person that was having her feelings hurt all the time, or I could see it as, 'Oh, you're staring at me because I have really cool legs.' And I do.鈥�
Haven has the word 鈥渃reate鈥� tattooed on her wrist
When she鈥檚 not training and being home-schooled, Haven spends time working as an ambassador for other amputees. She visits amputees in the military, talks at schools, and emphasises the benefits of being different.
The pressure on Haven as a role model and the growing attention she receives did become too much last year, she admits.
鈥淚 really had to find a balance between being 14 and being this story that everybody wants to have.鈥�
For Rob, Haven returning to Vietnam is an important part of her journey.
Her maternal grandparents remain in the country and her half-sister has been in contact online.
The Shepherds plan to visit after the 2020 Games 鈥渢o get that sense of where Haven actually comes from and what her parents were like鈥�, Rob says.
But for now, Haven鈥檚 focus is on her 16th birthday. It will, however, be bitter-sweet.
Since Haven was adopted, she and Shelly have been almost constantly by each other鈥檚 side.
Every day they travel for an hour together to swimming practice, but Haven will soon be able to drive herself.
鈥淚 think I'm going to call her on the way home just to hear her voice, because I love my mum.鈥�
When Haven reflects on her dramatic start in life, she says she feels no resentment towards her biological parents.
She says she uses her extraordinary story of survival as an inspiration.
鈥淚 definitely see that circumstance as a real reason why you shouldn鈥檛 just be moping around your whole life.鈥�
