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For me to wear short sleeves was really difficult. Even in the summer, I would cover my arms. But I got to a point where I thought: 鈥榃hy should I cover my arms?鈥� It doesn鈥檛 happen straight away, it takes time. As long as you鈥檙e investing time in putting yourself out there, wearing short sleeves, making yourself feel comfortable, it will happen eventually.

The doctors say they鈥檝e never seen anyone with a birthmark like this before.

It鈥檚 called angiokeratoma, and it鈥檚 got bigger as I鈥檝e grown. The doctors want to stop it growing, but they say it鈥檚 like a tree - if they put a skin graft on, it will just grow through it.

I鈥檓 better now than when I was in school, because I鈥檓 not put in situations that make me feel uncomfortable. When I was getting changed for PE, I would be so paranoid that people were watching me. I鈥檇 sit out because I鈥檇 be too afraid of them seeing my birthmark.

Learning to live with it is the hardest thing. I鈥檓 trying to manage it better, talking openly about it so my family understands. I鈥檓 becoming a lot more relaxed, but it鈥檚 the initial moment when people stare. That鈥檚 the worst bit. I鈥檓 so aware of it because it鈥檚 just so eye-catching. It can be bright red sometimes - it changes colour so much.

I鈥檓 undergoing treatment at the University Hospitals Birmingham to relieve the pain I'm in.

I went on a high dose of medication and it cleared my skin. The downside was the really bad side effects. I used to take the medication once a week, on a Friday, and was groggy the entire weekend. I just thought: 鈥業t鈥檚 just not worth it鈥�. I thought there鈥檚 no point in having clear skin if it has an impact on everyone around me.

Now I tend to manage it by managing my stress levels. I run a bath and put in Dead Sea and Epsom salts, and I soak and meditate. This is a huge part of feeling good enough to show my skin.

I never used to have to talk to people I didn鈥檛 know in the street. Now that I do, it鈥檚 a nice way to break the ice. I鈥檓 changing. I see people differently.

I could shave my beard, but I don鈥檛 because I鈥檓 used to it. I have to keep it for the rest of my life - it鈥檚 part of me now.

I鈥檝e always been pretty healthy. I never had spots - even during puberty. So this was quite a shock. It鈥檚 known as nodular prurigo, and came out of nowhere.There was an itchiness - really deep down under the skin.

It鈥檚 like there鈥檚 nothing there. But I itch and itch, and lumps appear. I don't know whether I caused them to appear by itching, or they are there, underneath and making me itch.

There are things you can do to try to alleviate the scratching. I have acrylic nails - they're brilliant. I used to have bandages and special clothing. I even tried cling film.

I joked to the consultant that they should put my arms in plaster, and she actually offered to do that. It had got to that point. But I know I would find something to get down the plaster. When you have an itch, you have got to get to it.

This disease has ruined my life. I am currently signed off work - I just want to hide away. It鈥檚 changed me as a person - I've lost a lot of confidence.

The spots are sore and so ugly. That鈥檚 the main reason I鈥檓 getting a tattoo of roses on my body. To make me feel better. It won鈥檛 be on show for everyone else, it will just be for me really, to look at instead of the scars.

Apart from the time in detention before I was granted asylum, living in England is nice. The climate is adequate because my skin condition doesn't like sun exposure.

I have attended some self-esteem workshops here, and now I feel happy about myself. I have made a friend who insisted that I should let my hair grow for the first time. Now I鈥檓 happy with my hair. I love myself, I think to be happy within yourself means you can share the love around.

Cushing鈥檚 disease has wrecked my body. I put on four stone in nine months, and that was with going to the gym six times a week and not eating much - no carbs. I went from a size 8 to a size 20. It鈥檚 something to do with the excess of [steroid hormone] cortisol from the tumour on my pituitary gland.

The stretch marks appeared when I started putting on weight.

My hair fell out and I gained weight in my face. The classic look of someone with Cushing's is a round face, skinny arms, skinny legs and a big stomach with stretch marks. They're very deep purple, because of the high cortisol levels. They're really angry and they change colour. Mine are still a little bit purple.

I鈥檓 losing the weight, but the first sign of it going back on is stressful. I have to keep getting checked. They don鈥檛 know if [the disease] is going to wake up in six months鈥� time, three years鈥� time, never.