INTERVIEWER:Can you remember the first time you heard about what had happened to Ivor as a little boy?
JUDY:Mum told me when I was ten years old, I just remember going into a corner of the room and just sobbing my heart out and from that moment on there was that feeling inside of me that I had to and needed to protect my dad. I did not feel I was able to go to him when I was upset because I didn鈥檛 want to and I鈥檝e accepted that I won鈥檛 be able to release my demons because I can鈥檛 until he has. That鈥檚 what I鈥檓 hoping I鈥檒l get from today.
Oh my god, the size of it. Oh my god.
TOUR GUIDE:This is a vast complex in which hundreds of thousands of people lived, briefly. Train load after train load of people coming in, replenishing these huts and the slave labour force, about 80% of the people on the trains being taken off to death.
GROUP SINGING
JUDY:Seven hundred people in one, what?!
IVOR PERL:Yeah, seven hundred people in a block and towards the end a thousand.
YOUNG FEMALE:And did you just sleep on this in the hut?
IVOR PERL:Yeah. And in fact this quite sort of modern compared to what I remember ours was, this is brick built ours was wooden built.
JUDY:UNCLEAR
IVOR PERL:What for? What like you?
JUDY:Just you know, you know, for your mum and your dad and your brothers and your sisters.
IVOR PERL:Do you know Judy? All I can tell you is that crying in my heart, it鈥檚 there every day.
JUDY:I know it is, I know, I know it鈥檚 every day, I know dad, I know. But you鈥檙e finally, for the first time today, showing that it鈥檚 too painful.
IVOR PERL:Yes.
JUDY:And I can鈥檛 imagine what it was like for you. You know, you were a child. I know it鈥檚 been stuffed down for so many years鈥
IVOR PERL:Yeah, exactly.
JUDY:If you open that box you鈥檙e scared, you鈥檙e so scared because you think that you鈥檒l never be able to close it again.
IVOR PERL:Possibly.
JUDY:I know, I鈥檓 sure that鈥檚 what it is.
IVOR PERL:So maybe that鈥檚 better off to be left alone.
JUDY:I just know for sure that if you were to allow yourself be susceptible to that emotion of sadness, and shed a few tears, it is a healthy emotion and it is part of the grieving process.
IVOR PERL:But as I said the tears don鈥檛 have to be in sort of, in water, it can be in other ways as well, hurt in the heart.
JUDY:No, I know but maybe your kids need to see that.
Video summary
Ivor Perl survived Auschwitz-Birkenau as a 12 year old boy. His entire family were deported there. Of his mother, father and eight siblings, only he and his brother Alec survived.
Ivor is returning to Auschwitz with his daughter Judy. It will be the first time that Judy has been to the camp. Growing up, Judy describes the challenge of having a parent who was a survivor and the impact it had on her.
She has asked Ivor to return to Auschwitz in the hope that it can help him, and therefore her, come to terms with the past.
Upon arrival Judy is horrified by Birkenau and what her father went through. She wants him to grieve, for his family and what he endured, so that he can heal and so that she and her siblings can process their own inherited trauma. But Ivor explains that this is too much to ask and that he has his own way of dealing with the pain of the past.
As well as Auschwitz, Ivor survived Allach and Dachau concentration camps.
This clip is from the 大象传媒 series, The Last Survivors.
Due to the sensitive nature of the subject matter, we strongly advise teacher viewing before watching with your students.
Teacher Notes
Should sites like Auschwitz remain open to the public? Are tours of these sites a good thing?
Can you sympathise with Judy鈥檚 perspective? Are you surprised by the impact that the Holocaust continues to have on the second generation? Discuss what that impact might be.
Do you expect survivors to be emotional?
This short film will be relevant for teaching history at GCSE and above in England, Wales and Northern Ireland and National 4/5 and above in Scotland.
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