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Emails and calls from the ´óÏó´«Ã½ were continuing to come in and it was kinda tricky to get my feet back on the ground and concentrate on my job.

Luckily for me at the moment, part of my routine is to go to Chester one evening a week to meet some friends - so I had the drive there and back to think things over and the pleasure of telling them about the programme.

Talking of that, when I lived in Sydney, I had my numbers done. I don't know much about it but it's a bit like horoscopes - you give the date and time of your birth and the numerologist works out your number and so character traits from that.

I was a '7' and the thing that stuck in my mind was that the guy said I needed a lot of time every day to process, in peace, what had happened to me.

As someone who has chosen to live alone pretty much for the last 10 years, I can really identify with that. I hope doing this blog and the video diary will help me with that.

Anyway, Tuesday I had to get down to business, We're having a big house party for Chester races next week. I then cooked supper for the couple I look after and did some planning for the week ahead.

Wednesday the crew were coming to film me 'at home'. I was quite nervous about this, especially as they had mentioned filming a sequence of me baking a cake in the big house kitchen.

I am capable of doing more than one thing at once (as are most women I find!) but being filmed cooking and answering questions?

I guess I do quite fancy myself as Delia - but when things are just a fantasy in your head, that's one thing, that's manageable - it's just made up.

But being in a situation where you have to try to create that fantasy for real is another kettle of tuna. I didn't really want to find out that I couldn't do it. But I think that it went okay.

Overall, I enjoyed the day a lot. The crew are great and couldn't be more adept at putting you at your ease. Working with Joe Public must be hugely tiresome but they were unfailingly patient and charming.

I took the dogs up to the woods (where I felt they actually got bored even more quickly than I did - result!), talked about my childhood in the country, managed to do the cooking bit in the big house, without too much trouble and then fed one of the horses (some shots of me grimacing at the horse licking my hand might be quite funny).

After the crew left, I went and had tea and a de-brief with my boss. I have been very impressed at how incredibly supportive they have both been about this whole process.

As they are quite private people, I wasn't sure if they would want to be involved, but they have been brilliant and could not have been more encouraging and accommodating.

Thursday - back to preparations for the house party, which starts next Tuesday. I'm really into this whole ´óÏó´«Ã½ thing (and looking forward to one of the crew coming tomorrow to set me up with a handycam for the video diary) but have to stay focused on race week.

I love my cooking and am really excited about the menus for next week but it's a challenge and I need to be on the ball. I can't afford to be distracted.