大象传媒

About 32 years ago I met a delicate and literary lady through one of friends introduction.

She looked shame and clever with long hair.I impressed her excellent calligraphy on mails.We had had a good time for one year.

On military service, she came to campus to see me and told me that she was ready to marry with me. This news really shocked at me because I never had a kiss or hugged with her since making friend with her.

Because she once throwed away my hands on crossing the roads and reminded me that we were not familiar lover to have so closed relationship until now. Next day she also wrote me a letter to protest why I was so discourtesy to hold her hand but no respect to her and no notice to her in advance.

From that time, I merely talked with her by a safety distance in university campus, and had not will to "touch" her hands again until I was summoned to serve in Army.

Totally, we had written over 300 letters for one year communiation although we lived in the same city on Taiwan.

On the way of Military Service, I quitted from the campus and backed home due to a big injury in training. I told her that we were hard to meet together again. You were young and charming to meet more better beau.I am not the best because we never have any closed relationship but soulmate.I dare not accept you and your strange,new religion. For this reason,we truly separate each other and did not communicate again.

30 years later I suddendly got a letter from Auckland.I found this handwritten calligraphies look very familiar. Who is my new friend lived in Auckland of New Zealand?
My Penpal? My Internet Friend? I instantly felt puzzleheaded for this letter from Auckland.

On opening, I was very astonished that this is from my First Lover--Michelle.
She told me that she miss me year by year. She never forget that how good boy I was. I never touched her body while falling love with her. She is still Single and no marriage. I frankly told her that I had married and devoiced for long years. Now I looked after my kids alone and moved to Australia for some years. I told this news to my kids. My kids supported me to meet her again. After half a year communication, she flied to Melbourne to see me.

She was thin and has no vibrancy just looked like an patient from hospital. I felt that she has been sick for long years. I started to make pray for her and cooked foods for her at home. I finally know that she has been hurted by this strange religion for long time. Her soul seems not to adhere to her body. She is a Mental Patient. I was a volunteer to serve in one of Christian Commissions in Taiwan. I know how to differ extremist of religion-lover from mental patient. But it's very hard for me to convince her to change mind because she has accepted this strange religion for over thirty years. I hardly have my way to save her.

After one year she backed Taiwan and became more thinner. She is strunggling for changing new life but she has no way.

Now she leaves alone and let me not get closed to look after her. It's sad but true.

How can I save my First Lover, who is a mental patient now, although we are all Bachelors and get old. There is not any good feeling for me to love her again because I can not have mercy on her religion but natural love of human being from God. I can not let my kids confused their minds for love and charity. I must keep this first love in mind but dare not get marry with the first lover.
It's regretful for us to separate in young age, and meet together late because both of us have changed two different worlds.

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